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Sometimes I scare myself with my own negativity. I know.. "Then just think positively." Unfortunately, it's not that easy.


Today is one of my many 'kick myself in the ass' days. Every so often (roughly once a month at least), I get into a funk where all that I can think about is the royal cluster fuck that I've made of my life. I know I'm on the right path now, and most days I am pretty positive about that. Today was not one of those days.


I get so caught up in my "should haves" that I make myself physically sick. Do you ever just sit down and rattle off to yourself every grave mistake you've ever made and wonder how different your life would be if you had taken control of it when you should have instead of letting your catalog of faults overcome you? Ok, maybe it's just me...

There's a whole story to go with this rant, but I don't have it in me to tell it right now.

Side note: I need a new job, someone get to work on that for me...